Confessions of Ambivalent Mind

Holding my tears,   Hiding my emotions to appear strong in front of you  While all I want to is cry with you        It was not that, I did not want to appear weak  but  I wanted to be your strength  For I may never be able to truly understand what your loss is  But the very thought of it brings in horror and pain  I remained firm, listened to you intently trying to put to words what you feel,  without being able to exactly put into words what I felt  I still can't put into words what I feel What I know for sure is -  whatever it maybe,  through all your thick and thin.   I'll be by your side and there for you.  I can't say it be all right but with time this pain too shall pass.   It will subside to find joy or another new kind of pain  But then that is life   What can you say about it, It'll throws curve ball when you least expect it  It will continue to do so...

Life is too small to hold regrets b ut it's these that give you a hard time when you loose some one rea lly close Maybe you could have be there more for your parents. All they wanted was some of you time. Very little. Just one phone call in the night We are always stating that our lives are problematic,  If only our parents could understand and help ease this instead of adding to the problems.  We see their care as a problem and here is where we are wrong We shall only be able to completely understand them when we'll go through the same routine with our kids Till then life will give us hard hitting experience that will put us in their shoes.  If only we could realise this and learn from it. "All they wanted was a phone call in the night Just to check whether their child was doing all right."